1. Scar Me
2. Leaving Marks (spoken word)
3. Upper
4. In The Mirror
5. My Only Girl
6. My Life
7. Jazzy (instrumental)
8. Song Without Words (spoken word)
9. Therapy
10. Someday
11. ...
12. 16th Beat (drum track)
13. Derrick Is Gay (drum track)
Scar Me
count your steps as you walk away from me in case
you want to come back to me someday I don't understand how you can move
on so fast when you're the first I thought would ever last and now, all
I have are these scars impressed upon my heart Time was supposed to make
us stronger, but instead it threw us apart and maybe someday I'll learn
enough about myself I'm already further along the way with all of your
help if I could find the place in my mind where you exist eternally I would
live there forever as if it were my home I understand the dream is over
now
Leaving Marks (spoken word)
why is it that when I walk on the beach at night
I feel as if I leave no footprints in the sand? As if I leave no
marks on people lives as well, when in fact I think it's the other people
who leave marks on my life. Memories were made to be forgotten, but
forgotten is not what I want to be. Forgotten is all we have learned
in the past 12 years of school... forgotten are the random funny remarks
made by friends over the years... forgotten are the three and a half months
of summer before you and all your friends go to college... and forgotten
is the face of the beautiful girl you left behind for some reason... but
screw that, I won't be forgotten... I'll leave my footprints in cement,
never to be washed away.
Upper
going home once again get to see all of my friends
and I'm so excited to see you in the park with you I had my best night
and I'm so excited to see you the biting cold brings back the summer of
two years ago we ran around and had a blast I didn't even know how much
the time I spent with you would affect me I know wasn't for nothing I knew
you'd care for me It makes me sad to know that you're the only one around
Cause when you're down there's no one else around you're growing up you're
moving on you're going away I just can't wait for my next day with you
In The Mirror
another time I've failed another dumb mistake so
I go up to the mirror a happy face I fake reflection brings me sorrow denial
brings regret I knew bad things would happen since the first day we met.
My Only Girl
all I want is one more tomorrow some days I think
time is all we lack but I know that's one thing I can't ask to borrow cuase
once time is spent, you can't buy it back my only girl and I know I'm a
risk I can't ask you to take and I know I'm not worth it, but I hope you
think I'm worth it anyway when I get home at the end of my day I smile
to hear the message that you left me cause you're the only one who keeps
my dark clouds at bay when grey skies is all that I'll ever be my only
girl
My Life
my life is a movie in the making nothing seems
to make sense till the credits have run through I've had time to think
about it all my life, is full of all the cliches which makes me wonder
if I'm being seen from multiple angles, and put to film I know my role,
I know my part I play the dork with another broken heart Sometimes I wonder
who critiques my life Is it a big hit, make a killing is it the shit, does
it attract all the chicks I don't think I deserve four stars or two thumbs
up I know the end, you won't have to wake up 18 years in production...
you've seen my screw up in school, with girls, you've probably seen me
go corrupt no day is ever the same I walk a thin line to keep sane like
an actor I'll always remain stuck in this life I don't know why I'm in
trouble, lost my mind All my thoughts are so hard to find no effort seems
like it will ever be enough
Jazzy (instrumental)
Song Without Words (spoken word)
how much can possibly be said without speaking
a single word? the raise of an eyebrow, a twitch from the nose, the
release of a breath even... a gentle touch, a gentle smile, a glaring look.
I look into her eyes and travel to depths of her soul, my eyes saying a
million things but lacking a single sound. The beating of my heart
navigates its way to her ear resting against my chest with two lovers consumed
in a deep embrace suffocating the skin where the two bodies meet... all
of this leading to her mind, her thoughts listening to my heart at a different
pace, a different pace and a different feeling, but each beat allows her
to read me a little better... and what words did I have to say?
Therapy
what do i have to do? if you would only come
out of that daze called modesty I'll tell you how great you are I speak
in all honesty I tell you to trust yourself but please close your mind
to your own doubts I'm your therapy take the words I say Just don't roll
your eyes I'm gonna make you believe please take my advice I don't care
what I have to do I'll tell you a thousand times if it makes you see what
is true
Someday
someday, when I am gone someday, will you remember
this sad sad song someday, will I learn to change someday, will I let go
of the past emotions let it go someday, will everyone forget me I wish
I could forget myself, I'm so tired of who I am someday, will I take a
minute with myself I know all I need is resolve yesterday, I found myself
alone, once again yesterday, I found myself at peace again yesterday, I
thought I found love, when I found you but I guess I was wrong cause I
never found love... and I guess I never found you too
...
a hundred miles, 80 minutes, it's all the same
to me just in earshot close proximity is all I wanted to be screams are
silenced by indifference I stand here now with my life in your hands I
know it won't make a difference you're the only one who understands all
I do now, is sit around and think of how things went wrong then think of
how i lied to you when I said that would be your last song sometimes I
wonder if I'm running out of opportunities to lay by your side I might
be running of all chances so, I'll say I love you now
16th Beat (drum track)
Derrick Is Gay (drum track)