1. Weight Of The World
2. Steps
3. A Credit To His Gender
4. Trophy
5. Up And Away
6. Last Believer
7. Static
8. Favorite Son
9. West End Memorial
10. This Is The Light
11. Bittersweet
12. Token Idiot
13. Come Dancing
14. Lampshade
15. Think Of Me
16. The Sky Is Falling
17. Sometimes
Weight Of The World
and what about the times you did your best to assuage
my troubled soul what happened to me what happened to you what was it that
you said would see us through i want to know how to feel something real
and i will try no more to run all this pressure getting closer and it seems
like i've been here before time on my hands weight of the world laid bare
my soul as i lose control run away you can retrace those steps and find
your way once more i'll wait believe in yourself as the cruel world closes
in take my hand i'll be a friend for you this weight you bare alone one
day the light i know will illuminate your heart
Steps
when i beat my head against the wall of convention
the blood i taste is everyone's i fought a battle thought unpopular for
stakes nobody seems to see nobody sees but me one step forward two steps
back come on and try me my pain is the pain of children my heart is burning
with their shame when mother cries all day i'll wipe those tears away you
can't grow up healthy in a house of for every father holding back the angry
fire until five when it festers on the drive his boss has shamed him to
tears he should "take it like a man" but he never had a man to tell him
A Credit To His Gender
how are you feeling? how does someone like you
elude the moral quarantine does your repression only server the greater
lie as you abuse and objectify all the emotions you defeat you've got the
world at your feet because you think you've silenced all the critics of
your misogynistic lies but when you wake up from your reveries you'd better
realize you're a model of virility a specimen divine as you deflower you
empower the false ego trapped inside and by the virtue of your "conquests"
you've endeared yourself to those who you hold in high esteem you think
you've silenced all the critics of your misogynistic lies but when you
wake up from your reveries you'd better realize you've got to rectify that
attitude you're a hopeless case and now you're too late you call her a
whore she's just the same as you though she could never be that shallow
but you just take what you can get and you throw the rest away another
notch in your belt another score another lay you're taking she's giving
you're losing you think you're winning you're time is running out now it
doesn't feel the same
Trophy
i suppose you did it out of love i feel that pressure
from above i didn't perform quite up to par i only gained another scar
i'm not your trophy i will not shine for you sorry for the disappointment
i did the best i could but here i've let the family down again i'm your
failure your mistake because i failed to break the tape i'm your shameful
progeny your begotten tragedy you ought to know i'm not for show
Up And Away
you've sworn allegiance to your dreams but still
it seems so hard that tightrope that you walk why can't you put it down
drink your way through one more clouded chapter of your life the hands
reaching out to help you only seemed to push you further away your time's
up and away you've made your choice now there's nothing left to say your
times up and away mistreated and abused but they couldn't steal your heart
everyone was so confused but your friends all played their part most likely
to succeed still you threw it all away now your dreams lie buried next
to you they're gone forever where's the spark in your eye i miss your smile
you're burning inside out did you want to? everything they told you to
make the bad things go away everything that they kept from you everything
i wanted to say
Last Believer
do you believe? we can make a change will you believe
tomorrow? or will it slip away? black and white we're all the fucking same
demographics keep up caught up in the game violence what the fuck do you
expect? the cause has left us leaving nothing but effect the laughter has
subsided leaving hatred in it's wake in a nation trusting no one sworn
to bend but never break america is burning look around it's in the air
but i'll be the last believer just as long as i still care and i still
care what's going on? what's happened now? show me a purpose please show
me how desperate times one thousand symptoms one disease government tradition
and genocidal policies don't look back don't wait until history repeats
no, no more lies no more bodies in the streets
Static
like a weathered statue i will wait for you like
the darkness fading waiting to see it through like an ardent cry wakes
me from the silence of my sleep like a distant bell like a man who fights
the system fights to keep if you have to ask the price you can't afford
it there's nothing free in this world there's nothing free in this life
like a super hero i'll try to save the world with an anesthetic to life
a thousand fingers like a man accused i'll weigh the consequence like a
man afraid of the madness just beyond the picket fence
Favorite Son
why did you need to take that pill? never has and
never will make you better make you well you're shackled in your self-inflicted
cell sunlight you'll never see you're a prisoner of pharmacology and you're
telling me you feel fine never better that's what you said in your last
letter that was read aloud at your memorial last week where are you now?
up above? i hope you find some kind of love that isn't bottled or tamper-resistant
but unconditional and consistent the peace you've spent you lifetime searching
for if this is what it takes maybe others can learn form your mistakes
and turn off that blacklight before it gets too late
West End Memorial
true freedom they give us no slaughter too sacrilegious
the smoke clears on bloated bodies i feel safe now do they want me service
we fought there in the jungles i saw nothing i felt no enemy we died there
in the foxhole my companion lay bleeding in my arms so proud pride so quick
to murder for posterity hatred trained to operate manually
This Is The Light
i had a dream that i woke up in a sweat another
self-inflicted nightmare i will not forget i felt a light i saw you shine
something's wrong i felt that tremor in my soul that memory one last time
this is the light this is the way where the darkness keeps the sun away
this is the light this is the way this stream of memories that carries
me away i know my head at least i thought i did i'd take a silver bullet
through my soul if i could give this phantom friend this runaway train
of thought somebody's been following me through every trial i've ever sought
never sought these tears leave scars as they run down my face i'm changing
i'm leaving now i'm leaving for a better place
Bittersweet
you try to tell me where your heart is you say
there's nothing wrong and the honesty in your eyes tells me that i should
be strong i don't want to get wrapped up in morbid reflection because that's
a pessimistic space and the situations i imagine are lost somewhere in
you face because when were together it's bittersweet now your with him
and i miss you i feel somehow incomplete i try to stand on my own i take
it one day at a time and if you ask me how i'm doing i bite my lip and
say i'm fine well i don't know i can't sing can't sleep do anything i just
know i'll be there waiting for you to come around i know you tell me all
the time that i worry too much but not a day goes by where i'm not thinking
about you what we had what we could have if you just give me one more chance
i miss you and it's so bittersweet
Token Idiot
what should i say i guess things didn't go my way
but you insist on shining light on my greatest failures fallible is me
but you can see this isn't my reality it's just the way things go for us
someone out there saying life just isn't fair but it's the disappointments
and the great mistakes that make you wiser and what about the times you
set me straight and still left me waiting at the gate it's just the way
things go for us i'm sick of trying at your way did you really think i'd
make it anyway i pulled this splinter from my face and found another worthwhile
cause to take your place i woke up ok it's just another rainy day and i'm
feeling the same way as you
Come Dancing
Lampshade
i can feel my bones decay i haven't got a thing
to say i never thought i could end up this way maybe i should have known
but now my cover's blown i've been up for hours but my feet never touched
the floor i can't pretend that i'm as funny as all you're friends so i'll
keep this lampshade on my skull for one more night i've got a project car
i've got a vcr i've got a hundred friends but i don't know where they are
my life's a fantasy i'm just a wanna be another throw away contemporary
enemy did you want me to be the life of the party i've made some mistakes
so stop kicking yourself because i blame me it's still the same nothing's
changed
Think Of Me
i never knew how good i had it i had to treat you
like a habit it became what i'd guess you call a slight obsession now i've
had some time to work it out way too much time to be without the one i've
wanted you're my right direction when you're back there do you think of
me when you're alone before you sleep you are the one i'm waiting for this
time's not like before i'm going to carry you away thinking good things
now i know we'll work it out somehow i try to keep my chin up but it's
so hard to let you go it never hurt before to be alone now your voice is
salvation on the phone i only wish you weren't so far away
The Sky Is Falling
look out below the sky is falling today is the
day the weak will be slain see carrion swarm towards human landfills a
final resting place for the enemies of the state their truth is a lie with
break neck speed and sterile affection we swallow a culture being spoon
fed to us like dutiful sheep being led to the slaughter we awaken infected
in the land of the free and the home of the brave
Sometimes
when it's time to start working to reconstruct
a life programmed to self-destruct when it's time to set your sights on
something better when all that you've known is the emptiness of being alone
when friends start drifting away sometimes it's better to let go it only
hurts to hold on to time worn memories sometimes it's never what is seems
it only serves to break your will i had a dream last night that you and
i got in a fight i never meant to hurt you but i guess it ended up that
way we went our seperate ways and i stayed mad for six whole days that's
when i realized when i'm alone i'm in bad company i want to help you but
you've got to want to help yourself i don't want to bury another friend
i take it day by day and watch the people i love just fade away where's
the good in this? whatever happened to you?