1. Drowning
2. Anyone, Anyone?
3. For Justin
Drowning
am i drowning you out? boasts of defection.
if everything was up to me i would be gone by the first light. the
first sign of hope i'd be packed up and out on my way. and time has
been spread so thin. and it's just hours till the day begins.
and the things that are keeping you here are not keeping me here (here
at all). and the things that are keeping you here will keep me away.
and you'll be sorry, isn't that what they'll say. don't follow your
heart cause it just seems to get in your way. and don't ever leave
here. and mope at your leisure. and straighten out your crease
dear. and truth is in a tall beer. are you drowning your fears?
glass of deception. when everything is easy then everything will
be ok. when everything is easy then you won't be sad that you stayed.
and time has been spread so thin. and it's just hours till the day
begins. and the things that are keeping you here are not keeping
me here (here at all). and the things that are keeping you here will
keep me away. and you'll be sorry, isn't that what they'll say.
don't follow your heart cause it just seems to get in your way. and
don't ever leave here. and mope at your leisure. and straighten
out your crease dear. and truth is in a tall beer.
Anyone, Anyone?
i'm not sure of anyone, anyone. but i've
got plans. i'm not asking for everything, but sure i could use a
hand. get a little anxious sometimes, you'll be gone and i'll be
left behind. get a little nervous sometimes, it'll be my cue and
i'll forget my lines. get a little lost look and some staring from
the corner of my eye. never really mastered disinterest. i
can't see how the way that you leave me yellow makes us curse. i
must be out of touch. i won't ask you to give up on the things that
seem to keep you gone, but i could be gone too. feel a little sorry
sometimes, your not here when i am writing. feels a little awkward
sometimes, you won't talk but we're not fighting. you hold onto your
secrets, and i'm not privy to what is on your mind. but i can't help
but feel tired. so tired. so tired. so tired. so
tired. so tired.
For Justin
its been a year now, since you were hear now.
and i've been trying to heal inside. dedications have all been placed.
and i see your resemblance in my face. and on our birthday, i'll
set an extra wish for you. for you. and i have learned so much
since you've been gone. and i have done so little for so long.
so now i'll settle up my grievances and focus on the savory, and wave all
these discrepancies away. and i'll peter out these misconceptions,
give out faith at my discretion. live a life that you would think
was sane. sane. display and changes that they have made.
and i wonder if you ever really wanted it this way. and in your memory
they even hung a plaque for you. for you. and i have learned
so much since you've been gone. and i have done so little for so
long. so now i'll settle up these grievances and focus on the savory,
and wave all these discrepancies away. and i'll peter out these misconceptions,
give out faith at my discretion. live a life that you would think
was sane. sane.