1. Dirty Boy
2. Bloom In Black
3. Olivia
4. My Time Will Come
5. Saint Mary's Children
6. Chabacanada
7. Like You (Judge cover song)
8. Fight The Fight
Dirty Boy
his sly ways. this haze of ill magic.
a waste of space. it tastes so tragic. you fall from grace.
lose face, lose hold. cold like glass. your ass has been sold.
and now you're nothing but damaged goods. and now you're nothing
but damaged goods. provoke, revoke. you broke, he grew.
you choke, evoke. the joke's on you. dirty boy. silly
girl. dirty boy. and now you're nothing but damaged goods.
and now you're nothing but damaged goods.
Bloom In Black
i twitch and shiver like a dog dying, confined,
in its rusty cage. my heart races at a dangerous rate. beads
of sweat quickly gather like soldiers in formation. i yield control
to this horrid state. the nausea grows with every breath, every breath
grows more desperate. head spins reckless as i try to stand.
a slight tingling turns to migraine. shards of pain slide through
my brain. fuck this, you can never understand. i... i... i
can't settle down. i... i... i can't settle down. i... i...
i can't settle down. i... i... i can't settle down. i... i...
i can't settle down. i... i... i can't settle down.
Olivia
i'm not disgusted with the act. i'm just
disturbed by the fact that you felt the need to lead a life from which
you could never come back. i would never presume to judge.
i would never assume your motivation, but my empathy runs rampant when
i see you in this situation. sweet pawn in a shady business.
is it what you really want to do? you wanna get paid to get laid
on film. and there's a million more like you. i'm not disgusted
with the act. i'm just disturbed by the fact that you felt the need
to lead a life from which you could never come back. what the hell
has happened here? why the hell did you fall from the glorious pedestal
of teenage daydream perfection? where is the girl that i used to
know? olivia. olivia. olivia. olivia.
My Time Will Come
regret riddles my mind. got me blind to that
roulette. that brunette, she won't be mine. and there's the
source of my regret. can't forget the way i'd fret when she would
step into my view. what can i do with this upset? my mindset's
been going through. you win a few, you lose a few. i know it's
true, what can i do? but i've been losing through and through.
i think a win is overdue. i'm damned if i do and i'm damned if i
don't. and they all want me to but i won't. i'm damned if i
do and i'm damned if i don't. and they all want me to but i won't.
i'm damned if i do and i'm damned if i don't. and they all want me
to but i won't. i'm damned if i do and i'm damned if i don't.
and they all want me to but i won't. i'm damned if i do and i'm damned
if i don't. and they all want me to but i won't. i'm damned
if i do and i'm damned if i don't. and they all want me to but i
won't. i'm damned if i do and i'm damned if i don't. and they
all want me to but i won't. i'm damned if i do and i'm damned if
i don't. and they all want me to but i won't. my time will
come some day. in time my time will come. my time will come
some day. in time my time will come. my time will come some
day. in time my time will come. my time will come some day.
in time my time will come. my time will come some day. in time
my time will come. my time will come some day. in time my time
will come. my time will come some day. in time my time will
come. my time will come some day. in time my time will come.
Saint Mary's Children
this sunny day, this darkened room. i'm lonely,
i'm choking, i wanna go home. this sense of impending doom.
medication takes hold and my thoughts roam. in an 8x12 pale green
tomb. detrimental notions won't let me be. outside the gates,
the demons loom. i'm only 17, god set me free. set me free.
four point restraints. thorazine for that temper. i refuse
to admit that i belong here. isolation.
Chabacanada
i hide from the world with my hood pulled low.
realize if they can't see my eyes, they can't know what lies in my heart.
what runs through my head. lead screaming to manhood. the little
boy's dead. my hands are filthy, scarred, blistered, and broken.
my mind's ruined, sleazy. you've had it too easy. in this state
of grace, my place. make peace and annihilate. i still believe,
i still believe you gotta die to be great. i'm so ugly. i'm
so ugly. i'm so ugly. so ugly, to you. i'm so ugly.
i'm so ugly. i'm so ugly. so ugly, to you.
Like You (Judge cover song)
Fight The Fight
1, 2, 3, 4. 1, 2, 3, 4. i fight the
fight that you run from. i take the trials of life in stride.
i fight the fight that you run from. i'm not afraid to look inside.
i fight the fight that you run from. got no time to dwell on regrets.
i fight the fight that you run from. i'm not frightened by idle threats.
fight! fight! i fight the fight! fight! fight!
i fight the fight that you run from. i do my part to right the wrong.
i fight the fight that you run from. got no desire to simply belong.
i fight the fight that you run from. i stand alone and without fear.
i fight the fight that you run from. i persevere, i persevere.
fight! fight! i fight the fight! fight! fight!
i fight the fight!