1. Dear Sergio
2. Sick And Sad
3. Keasbey Nights
4. Day In Day Out
5. Walking Away
6. Giving Up Giving
In
7. On & On &
On
8. This One Goes
Out To...
9. Super Nothing
10. 9mm & A
Three Piece Suit
11. Kristina She
Don't Know I Exist
12. As The Footsteps
Die Out Forever
13. 1234 1234
Dear Sergio
Run run run all you do is
fucking run but you'll never run away from yourself. I know it's hard but
you've been then before and you know you're gonna be there again. I don't
care what the stars may say because they always feed their bullshit to
me. It's kind of sad how you lost what you had and you're never gonna have
it again and so I say: (chorus) Hey Sergio, it's getting kinda hot in here.
Every other day you don't care what they say because they always leave
you two steps behind. You try to smile and it lasts for awhile but they
always send you back to the start. Eenie meenie miney mo they shoot down
everyone you know and then they leave you there all alone. You wish they'd
stop but they never give up and you know deep inside that you're stuck
and so I say: Hey Sergio, it's getting kinda hot in here.
Sick And Sad
Went to the corner of second
and main and there was someone there who mentioned that they hoped that
it would rain forever, forever, so they could drown in peace. Went down
to the hodskin p.l. but there was nobody to answer when I rang the doorbell
forever, forever so now I'm sad all the time. Sick and sad again. Sometimes
I'd like the rain to end. Sick and sad again. Sometimes I'd like to stand
on my own two feet. Today was the day but she threw it all away and I could
never understand 'cause she was never one to play by the rules of the game
her and me we're so the same I try so hard and I never give in and I am
never satisifed until the day that I win agaisnt them but I don't care
I'll follow her to anywhere.
Keasbey Nights
It was the summer of '95
(so what?!), in the backyard, shaving the old plies. Feeling so strong,
something went wrong. Straight into my finger, what a stinger, it was so
long. I still remember that day, like the day that I said that I swear,
"I'll never hurt myself again", but it seems that I'm deemed to be wrong,
to be wrong, to be wrong. So i've got to keep holding on... they always
played a slow song. When they come for me, I'll be sitting at my desk,
with a gun in my hand, wearing a bulletproof vest.. Singing "my, my, my,
how the time does fly, when you know you're going to die by the end of
the night." I still remember when we were young and fragile then. No one
gave a shit about us because times were tougher then. Feeling so good,
cruising the hood; straight into the real world, rich kids never understood.
But I don't care. I can fade away to anywhere. Don't stop because you might
get dropped and if you do who's going to pick you up. Well I won't... they
always played a slow song.
Day In Day Out
I don't want to barge in
on your secrey see dependency see it means nothing to me I don't want to
hear about your problems and I don't want to listen to your apathy see
You're not like me see You mean nothing to me All your cash doesn't make
you any greener. (chorus) I don't need anyone to tell me what to feel.
I don't need anyone to hate the world with me. Day in, day out It's not
that bad. I worry and I worry but you'll never have to worry again, you'll
never be alone. In my room with a bucket full of phlegm I don't need a
music scene to tell me who I am I should have got a warning should have
came a year ago should I sent her a birthday card? My conscience tells
me no.
Walking Away
Well, hello. How are you?
Won't you pull up a chair? Won't you tell me your story because I really
do care about talking away. Here's to me, to you, to us, to everything,
I hope it never falls apart. We're talking away. Well you look so fine,
and you seem so kind, and I've got to say that i'm having a good time dancing
away. Here's to me, to you, to us, to everything, I hope it never falls
apart. We're dancing away. Could things get any better now? If they can,
I cannot see how, but as the time goes by, you stop and sigh. You stop
and sigh and then you wonder why. I can't stop this feeling, as i'm walking
away, and I could never understand half the things you'd say, as we're
walking away. Goodbye to me, to you, to us, to everything, because it fell
apart, as we're walking away. Things weren't better then. You felt that
you had to pretend. But as the time goes by, you stop & sigh. You stop
and sigh and then you wonder why.
Giving Up Giving In
I got no cash, got no girl,
but I got the world in the palm of my hand and I don't care if you care
or if you understand because i'm a little kid and I've got little problems
and I don't give a shit if you don't understand because: I got me. That's
all I need. And I live comfortably, and I sleep peacefully. I give up.
I don't want to hear, I don't want to be near you or your friends and your
dime a dozen miseries. I don't care if you care about the way you wear
your hair or your shoes or your idiot attitude. Don't stop because I want
to hear your problems. Don't you stop because I want to help you solve
them. Don't stop.
On & On & On
I still remember that night
it was the fourth of July It's still engraved in my mind and I'm not suprised.
Gang wars no guns hand to hand. You're black I'm white he's purple but
I still don't undestand. I'm going to be alright I'm going to be okay everything
is going to be fine back off. I want to be alone I want to think it out
and I'm thinking that I want to go home. Look who's laughing now. I'll
pull it off somehow. As I passed her by I could see her cry and I'll never
forget the look that was in her eye and the music you know it played on
& and on & on so won't somebody tap her on the shoulder tell her
life goes on. 3 years 2 months 1 week 4 days I'm always counting down because
there ain't no easier way trust me you know that I tried and if I said
it was easy then you know that I told a lie. I'm going to be alright I'm
going to be just fine. One down five billion to go. Am I the next in line
and do I really want to know?
This One Goes Out To...
Staring out the window of
somebody's pickup truck well I never mind the boredom cause I use it for
a crutch just to get me to that plae its a different state of sane and
everytime I try to change I always end up quite the same thinking back
to happier days when everyone was ignorant and all the kids behaved but
me and my friends and the ice cream man that was our existance that was
our clan this one goes out to the friends I never had: hey I don't understand
but I'd like to anyway hey I don't understand but I like it anyway hey
I don't understand but I like you anyway hey I don't understand Shelter
in the city we decided to go in and I gave a man some money to buy herion
but the homeless man returned and he gave me back a dime he said, "put
it in your sock my friend and save it for another time" but: lessons are
learned and later unlearned if he knew then what he knows now well he could
rule the world but I'm not one to judge what happened yesterday cause I
got me I got myself my future is at stake this one goes out to...
Super Nothing
He wakes up sad again, wonders
when the rain will end She'll act like she don't care cause to her it's
just a game ...that he plays I'm a super I'm a nothing I'm a no one going
nowhere going fast but I don't care All the times he said he would she
never really understood what he said or what he meant he won't forget what
wasn't said He'll find himself alone standing in the rain.
9MM & A Three Piece
Suit
Well I know I shouldn't care
but I do & I don't and I always crack a smile when I see your punk
rock clothes and you try try but you never fit in and you're never going
to so pack it up pack it in, so there Steve took three or four Heather
took more. She lit a cigarrette and they're walkin out the door with a
semi automatic and a ski mask on they look to one another and they say
to themselves "what fun". Well I never want to bother and I never want
to hover over his or her affairs because that's not fair and it seems to
me that you're running out of time and it seems to me like you're never
going to do what's right Jack dropped 21, Jill 22. The look in his eye
said "Brother what are you going to do with a 9mm and a three piece suit?"
they look to one another and say "hey motherfucker, who's the fool?"
Kritsina She Don't Know
I Exist
Not long ago in my high school
days I watched a girl from so far away But everytime she passed me by I
turned my head away and quietly sighed. And when she walked by her hair
would dance, a secret tango that only I could understand and if she asked
for the time of day I'd look her in the eyes and quietly say: Kristina
Kristina Do you have any clue who I am? (hell no) So listen up because
I'll tell you once and I'll explain myself the best that I can. Kristina
Kristina You don't know me so I'll have to persist. You don't know me so
I'll have to persist. I'm kind of shy so don't wonder why Kristina she
don't know I exist. From class to class I followed her, but I swore I'd
leave her undisturbed and if she ever stopped by and turned around I got
so nervous and I stared at the ground. And then one day in photography
I foud a contact print that I could not believe and there she was staring
back at me so I took her home so quietly. 1.17.98 it's been a day that
I've come to hate. As I walked into the video store there she stood as
my jaw fell to the floor. Tapping her toe, waiting in line, with a movie
and some other guy Why did I bother? Why did I care? About this girl named
Kristina Behr? Kristina Kristina You'll never get to know who I am. This
is goodbye so please don't cry and I'll let you down as softly as I can.
Kristina Kristina another name to cross off my list. In another life it
could have been nice but Kristina she won't know what she missed.
As The Footsteps Die Out
Forever
She was diagnosed on a Friday,
the kids were almost home, the kids were on their way back home from school,
lying face down in the gutter of unaccomplished dreams and broken memories
of things to come, "Sorry ma'am, I really am. I had to break the news.
I had to make the phone call to tell you that you're due, you know where,
I'll tell you when, and I suggest you start living these next three weeks,
the best way that you can." Every night for three long weeks, she'd roam
the hallways half asleep and as the footsteps fade away in my mind, I could
swear, I could swear, I heard her say: Don't wait for me, I've got a lot
to do I've got a lot to be and in the end maybe I'll see you there. Lost
her strength on a saturday. Spent the day in bed. Yeah, I'm fine, it's
just the flu she said with a smile, but when they turned their backs, the
tears would flow. She knew she only had a while to live to breathe to see
to be to bleed to stand on her own two weakened feet "and so I pray everyday:
don't take my mother away" and in the end maybe i'll see you there. You
know i'll see you there and in the end i'll see you there.
1234 1234
You, you try, you try to
get by. "You're never going to pull it off", "You shouldn't even try" "You're
a wet cigarette", "You're always second best", but they're never going
to give a shit about anybody but themselves. You fight for them to realize;
there's more to life, there's more to you, there's more than meets the
eye. And when you're done, the battle's been won. You sit back, you smile
and this is what you hum, you hum: ....12341234.... The years go by, the
time it does fly. Every single second is a moment in time that passes oh,
so quick and it seems like nothing, but when you're looking back, well
it amounts to everything. I've got myself. I've got my friends. I've got
my little family, but that's not where it ends. This one goes out to you,
it goes out to everyone. It's in the name of honesty because life has just
begun. .... 12341234.... Look around little brother, Can you tell me what
you see? You're a big boy now, so take responsibility. You never had it
hard, but now it's getting tough, so you whine, whine, whine and you say
you've had enough. You say i'm full of shit That i'm a hypocrite I shouldn't
talk, when i can't take the advice that i give? Well maybe you're right,
but open your eyes: the main difference here is that i try, try.