1. Miseria Cantare (The Beginning)
2. The Leaving Song Pt. II
3. Bleed Black
4. Silver And Cold
5. Dancing Through Sunday
6. Girl's Not Grey
7. Death Of Seasons
8. The Great Disappointment
9. Paper Airplanes (Makeshift Wings)
10. This Celluloid Dream
11. The Leaving Song
12. ...But Home Is Nowhere
13. Synthesthesia (UK bonus track)
14. Now The World (UK bonus track) (different
version than on 336 10" Picture Disc)
15. Spoken Word (hidden track)
16. This Time Imperfect (hidden track)
Miseria Cantare (The Beginning)
Love your hate, your faith lost. You are
now one of us. Love your hate, your faith lost. You are now
one of us. Nothing, from nowhere, I'm no one at all. Radiate.
Recognize one silent call as we all form one dark flame. Incinerate.
Nothing, from nowhere, I'm no one at all. Radiate. Recognize
one silent call as we all form one dark flame... as we all form one dark
flame... as we all... Love your hate, your faith lost. You
are now one of us. Love your hate, your faith lost. You are
now one... one of us.
The Leaving Song Pt. II
Don't waste your touch, you won't feel anything.
Or were you sent to save me? I've thought too much, you won't find
anything worthy of redeeming. Yo he estado aqui muchas veces antes
y regreso... to break down, and cease all feeling. Burn now, what
once was breathing. Reach out, and you may take my heart away.
Imperfect cry and scream in ecstasy, so what befalls the flawless?
Look what I've built (Please don't do this). It shines so beautifully
(I want you to live). Now watch as it destroys me. Y regreso
aqui otra vez y comienzo... to break down, and cease all feeling.
Burn now, what once was breathing. Reach out, and you may take my
heart away. Break down, and cease all feeling. Burn now, what
once was breathing. Reach out, and you may take my heart away.
I left it all behind and never said goodbye. I left it all behind
and never said goodbye. I left it all behind and never said goodbye.
I left it all to die. I saw its birth. I watched it grow.
I felt it change me. I took the life. I ate it slow.
Now it consumes me... I break down, and cease all feeling. Burn now,
what once was breathing. Reach out, and you may take my heart away.
Break down, and cease all feeling. Burn now, what once was breathing.
Reach out, and you may take my heart away... heart away.
Bleed Black
Oh. I am exploring the inside. I find
it desolate. I do implore these confines now as they penetrate, "recreate
me". I'm hovering throughout time. I crumble in these days.
I crumble, cannot... I cannot find reflection in these days. If you
listen, listen, listen. Listen close, beat by beat, you can hear
when the heart stops. I saved the pieces when it broke and ground
them all to dust. I am destroyed by the inside. I disassociate.
Hope to destroy the outside. It will alleviate and elevate me.
Like water flowing into lungs, I'm flowing through these days. As
morphine cuts through, through deadened veins, I'm numbing in these days.
If you listen, listen, listen. Listen close, beat by beat, you can
hear when the heart stops. I saved the pieces when it broke and ground
them all to dust. I know what died that night. It can never
be brought back to life. Once again, I know. I know what died
that night. It can never be brought back to life. Once again,
I know. I know I died that night (I know what died that night).
And I'll never be brought back to life (It can never be brought back to
life). Once again, I know (Once again, I know). I know I died
that night. And I'll never be brought back to life. Once again,
I know. Oh. If you listen, listen, listen. Listen close,
beat by beat, you can hear when the heart stops. I saved the pieces
when it broke and ground them all to dust so... if you listen, listen,
listen. Listen close, beat by beat, you can hear when the heart stops.
I saved the pieces when it broke and ground them all to dust.
Silver And Cold
I, I came here by day, but I left here in darkness
and found you, found you on the way. And now, it is silver and silent.
It is silver and cold. You, in somber resplendence, I hold.
Your sins into me. Oh, my beautiful one. Your sins into me.
Oh. As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer and I'll
beg for forgiveness. Your sins into me. Your sins into me.
Oh, my beautiful one. Light (light), like the flutter of wings (flutter
of wings), feel your hollow voice rushing into me as you're longing to
sing. So I (I), I will paint you in silver. I will wrap you
in cold. I will lift up your voice as I sink. Your sins into
me. Oh, my beautiful one now. Your sins into me. Whoa.
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer and I'll beg for
forgiveness. Your sins into me. Your sins into me. Cold
in life's throws. I'll fall asleep for you. Cold in life's
throws. I only ask you turn away. Cold in life's throws.
I'll fall asleep for you. Cold in life's throws. I only ask
you turn as they seep into me, oh, my beautiful one now. Your sins
into me. Oh, my beautiful one. Your sins into me. Oh.
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer and I'll beg for
forgiveness. Your sins into me. Your sins into me. Oh.
Your sins into me. Oh, my beautiful one now. Your sins into
me. Oh. As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
and I'll beg for forgiveness. Your sins into me. Your sins
into... your sins into me. Your sins into me. Oh, my beautiful
one.
Dancing Through Sunday
Will you join me in this dance of misery, cradled
in impossibility? Swooning, I am swept away. Swept off my feet.
With step by step by step we take the lead as drop by drop we start to
bleed. Oh, we dance in misery. And we dance, all... and we
dance, all... Oh, we dance in misery. Lost in the arms of our
misery, oh. Oh, we dance in misery. And we dance, all... and
we dance, all... Swept off our feet by our misery. We're swept
into shadows. Will you lend yourself to beauty that will horrify?
Let me hide within your black, the still inside your eyes. Deafened,
caught within a cry so sensual. As step by step by step I separate,
while breath by breath I suffocate. Oh, we dance in misery.
And we dance, all... and we dance, all... Oh, we dance in misery.
Lost in the arms of our misery, oh. Oh, we dance in misery.
And we dance, all... and we dance, all... Swept off our feet by our
misery. We're swept into shadows. So who will follow (who will
follow)? Who is the lead (who is the lead)? I know I'll leave
a stain because I bleed as we dance (as we dance). We all dance (we
all dance). We all (we all) have no chance in this horrid romance.
As we... Oh, we dance in misery. And we dance, all... and we dance,
all... Oh, we dance in misery. Lost in the arms of our misery,
oh. Oh, we dance in misery. And we dance, all... and we dance,
all... Swept off our feet by our misery. We're swept into shadows.
Swept off our feet by our misery. We're swept into shadows.
Yeah.
Girl's Not Grey
I'll lay me down tonight, much further down.
Swim in the calm tonight. This art does drown. What follows
me as the whitest lace of light (will swallow whole) just begs to be imbrued?
What follows has lead me to this place where I belong, with all erased.
What follows... All insects sing tonight. The coldest sound.
I'd send God's grace tonight could it be found. What follows me as
the whitest lace of light (will swallow whole) just begs to be imbrued?
What follows has lead me to this place where I belong, with all erased.
I'll lay me down tonight, much further down. Watch stars go out tonight.
On sinking ground, I'll lay me down. I'll lay me down. What
follows me as the whitest lace of light (will swallow whole) just begs
to be imbrued? What follows has lead me to this place where I belong,
with all erased. What follows will swallow whole. What follows
will swallow whole.
Death Of Seasons
Of late it's harder just to go outside, to leave
this deadspace with hatred so alive. Writhing with sickness, thrown
into banality, I decay. Killed by the weakness, but forced to return.
Turn it off. I watch the stars as they fall from the sky. I
held a fallen star and it wept for me, dying. I feel the fallen stars
encircle me. Now as they cry. Out there so quickly grows malignant
tribes. Posthuman extinction excels unrecognized. Feeling surrounded,
so bored with mortality, I decay. All of this hatred is fucking real.
Turn it on. Yeah. I watch the stars as they fall from the sky.
I held a fallen star and it wept for me, dying. I feel the fallen
stars encircle me. Now as they cry. It won't be alright despite
what they say. Just watch the stars tonight as they... as they disappear,
disintegrate. And I disintegrate cause this hate is fucking real.
Oh. And I hope to shade the world as stars go out and I disintegrate.
It won't be alright. Despite what they say. Just watch the
sky. As stars go out.
The Great Disappointment
I can remember a place I used to go. Chrysanthemums
of white, they seemed so beautiful. I can remember. I searched
for the amaranth. I'd shut my eyes to see. Oh, how I smiled
then, so near the cherished ones. I knew they would appear... saw
not a single one. Oh, how I smiled then, waiting so patiently.
I'd make a wish and bleed. While I waited I was wasting away.
While I waited I was wasting away. I can remember... dreamt them
so vividly, soft creatures draped in white, light kisses gracing me.
I can remember when I first realized dreams were the only place to see
them. While I waited I was wasting away. While I waited I was
wasting away. While I waited I was wasting away. Hope was wasting
away. Faith was wasting away. I was wasting away. I never,
never wanted this. I always wanted to believe... I never, never
wanted this. I never, never wanted this, but from the start I'd been
deceived. I never, never wanted this. I never, never wanted
this. I always wanted to believe... I never, never wanted this.
Oh. I never, never wanted this, but from the start I'd been deceived.
I never, never wanted this. Oh. Inside a crumbling effigy,
but you promised... So dies all innocence. But you promised...
me. While I waited I was wasting away. While I waited I was
wasting away. While I waited I was wasting away. Hope was wasting
away. Faith was wasting away. I was wasting away.
Paper Airplanes (Makeshift Wings)
Raise high monolithic statues. So fragile
as they fall. I am ever enthralled. Gaze, lie, and smirk in
time. Your arrogance will suit you well 'til fashion is dispelled.
As waves of plastic fame go out of fashion, you're going out... going out,
forever unknown. These waves of plastic fame go out of fashion (These
waves of plastic fame are drying up and I smile because), you're going
out... going out (you're dying to become forever unknown), unknown.
From above a rain of ashes descends. Anathema I will remain, forever
will remain. From below, in my seclusion, look up to the sky to see
paper wings and watch them burn. Without habitation you'll never
find a soul inside. No life, but nothing's died. No lights,
but quite the show. Just as long as no one ever knows all motion
is pantomime. As waves of plastic fame go out of fashion, you're
going out... going out, forever unknown. These waves of plastic fame
go out of fashion (These waves of plastic fame are drying up and I smile
because), you're going out... going out (you're dying to become forever
unknown), unknown. From above a rain of ashes descends. Anathema
I will remain, forever will remain. From below, in my seclusion,
look up to the sky to see paper wings and watch them burn. Dancing
in the rain of descending ash, dancing on your grave. I'll see you
fall... falling. Dancing in the rain of descending ash, dancing in
your dust. I'll see you fall... falling. Stop. I'd stop
it, had you a heart. Your heart. I'd stop it, had you a heart.
Your heart. From above a rain of ashes descends. Anathema I
will remain, forever will remain. From below, in my seclusion, look
up to the sky to see paper wings and watch them burn. Oh... watch
them...
This Celluloid Dream
Oh. Calling tears from deep inside, oh, you're
so exquisite. And in the mirror, all midnight eyes. Oh, if
I could remain, but it's just a visit. All midnight eyes read "vacancy".
Twisted, twisting. To the lovely dancing lights, I begged, "may I
cut in?" but they never stopped playing "their song". Of a joyous
song they sing, I've heard whispers. On a freezing note, I resonate.
Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end, just like a memory,
it twists me. Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end...
it twisted me. You land as lightly as the new snow, cinematic, onto
the melting boy and melt away. You light as gently, you're so cinematic.
Bathed in your radiance, I melt. Oh. In the glitter, in the
dark, sunk into velvet. Praying this will never end. In the
shadow of a star, in static pallor, I realized I never began. Just
like romantic verses, just like a joyous end, just like a memory, it twists
me. Just like romantic verses, just like a joyous end... it twisted
me. You land as lightly as the new snow, cinematic, onto the melting
boy and melt away. You light as gently, you're so cinematic.
Bathed in your radiance, I melt. All the colors... upon leaving...
all will turn to grey. All the colors... upon leaving... all will
turn to grey. All grey... all the colors... all grey... upon leaving...
all grey... all will turn to grey. All grey... all the colors...
all grey... upon leaving... all grey... all will turn to grey... grey...
it twisted me. You land as lightly as the new snow, cinematic, onto
the melting boy and melt away. You light as gently, you're so cinematic.
Bathed in your radiance... You land as lightly as the new snow, cinematic,
onto the melting boy and melt away. You light as gently, you're so
cinematic. Bathed in your radiance, I melt.
The Leaving Song
Walked away, heard them say, "Poison hearts will
never change. Walk away again." Turned away in disgrace.
Felt the chill upon my face cooling from within. It's hard to notice,
gleaming from the sky, when you're staring at the cracks. It's hard
to notice what is passing by with eyes lowered. You walked away,
heard them say, "Poisoned hearts will never change. Walk away again."
All the cracks, they lead right to me and all the cracks will crawl right
through me. All the cracks, they lead right to me and all the cracks
will crawl right through me. And I fell apart... as I walked away,
heard them say, "Poisoned hearts will never change." Walked away
again. Turned away in disgrace. Felt the chill upon my face
cooling from within.
...But Home Is Nowhere
Twenty-six years and seems like I've just begun
to understand my... my intimate is no one. When the director sold
the show, who bought its last rites? They cut the cast, the music,
and the lights. This is my line. This is eternal. How
did I ever end up here? Discarnate. Preternatural. My
prayers to disappear (absent of grace, marked as infernal). Ungranted
in dead time left me disowned. To this nature, so unnatural.
I remain alone. Twenty-six years end. Still speaking in these
tongues. Such revelations while understood by no one. When
the new actor stole the show, who questioned his grace? Please clear
the house of ill-acquired taste. This is my line. This is eternal.
How did I ever end up here? Discarnate. Preternatural.
My prayers to disappear (absent of grace, marked as infernal). Ungranted
in dead time left me disowned. To this nature, so unnatural.
I remain alone. Give me something. Give me something.
Give me something. Give me something. Give me something.
Give me something real. I lay strewn across the floor, can't solve
this puzzle. Everyday, another small piece can't be found.
Oh. I lay strewn across the floor pieced up in sorrow. The
pieces are lost, these pieces don't fit. Pieced together incomplete
and empty. This is my line. This is eternal. How did
I ever end up here? Discarnate. Preternatural. My prayers
to disappear (absent of grace, marked as infernal). Ungranted in
dead time left me disowned. To this nature, so unnatural. I
remain alone. This is my line. This is eternal. How did
I end up here? Discarnate. Preternatural. My prayers
to disappear (absent of grace, marked as infernal). Ungranted in
dead time left me disowned. To this nature, so unnatural. I
remain alone.
Synthesthesia
Heartbreak incarnate, I'm nothing if not your memories.
Heartbreak, please let me be your joy and your pain. Someday I will
be... I'll be those common words spoken uniquely, because I may... will
forever be floating as you feel. Please let me haunt as scent on
your pillow, letters of past all tear stained and wrinkled. Please
let me haunt as scent on your pillow, letters of past all tear stained
and wrinkled. Just say, say you will for me (for me). Invite
me to your memory. Just sing, sing again for me (for me) that long
forgotten song. Heartbreak incarnate, I'm nothing if not your memories.
Heartbreak, please let me be your joy and your pain. Someday I will
be... I'll be that waking warmth from a fading dream, because I will...
I may at best, float as you feel. Please let me haunt as scent on
your pillow, letters of past all tear stained and wrinkled. Please
let me haunt as scent on your pillow, letters of past all tear stained
and wrinkled. Just say, say you will for me (for me). Invite
me to your memory. Just sing, sing again for me (for me) that long
forgotten song. Just say, say you will for me (for me). Invite
me to your memory. Just sing, sing again for me (for me) that long
forgotten song. Let me be all the words... let me be all the words...
let me be all the words... let me be all the words... let me be all the
words echoing comfort. Let me be all the words that you'd unsay.
Let me be all the words echoing comfort... comfort... comfort... comfort.
Let me be all the words that you'd unsay... unsay... unsay... unsay.
Let me be all the words echoing comfort. Let me be all the words
that you'd unsay. Let me be all the words echoing comfort... comfort...
comfort. Let me be all the words that you'd unsay... unsay... unsay...
unsay.
Now The World
Summer, I painted a scene that lit the stars for
me. Said, "I can erase it for you dear." That summer created
those words that came to life in three. They were denied by you.
Summer, I laid down below the glitter adorned night and silently sparkled
my own way. Summer, I laid down by you and shared my frail light.
You gave the dark to me. I looked inside to find the one I sent away
(I wanted to excoriate). I nearly froze when I stepped inside to
find the flowers turned to gray (I releave and self mutilate). I
closed my eyes and kissed them one last time. Oh. Summer, a
morning so pale, alone when they found me. As I remained sleeping
I heard them say, "this summer created a boy of abject misery." He
was designed by you (He was designed by you). I looked inside to
find the one I sent away (I wanted to excoriate). I nearly froze
when I stepped inside to find the flowers turned to gray (I releave and
self mutilate). I closed my eyes and kissed them... So like
a lost child I will hide, and like a lost lie I will find, find a way to
return to the one who made me. Cover your eyes and we'll die together.
Will you cry for me? Will you cry for me? Or will you cry with
me? Will you cry for me? Will you cry for me? Or will
you cry with me? Will you cry for me (I've been a lonely one)?
Will you cry for me (I've had this whole world)? Or will you cry
with me (Drained from me)? Will you cry for me (Am I the only one)?
Will you cry for me (I've had this world)? Or will you cry with me
(Drained from me... drained from me)? Summer, I painted a scene that
lit the stars for me. Said, "I can erase it for you dear."
Spoken Word (by Gibson Casian, Davey Havok, and
Hans Wold)
We held hands on the last night on earth.
Our mouths filled with dust. We kissed in the fields and under trees,
screaming like dogs, bleeding dark into the leaves. It was empty
on the edge of town but we knew everyone floated along the bottom of the
river. So we walked through the waste where the road curved into
the sea and the shattered seasons lay, and the bitter smell of burning
was on you like a disease. In our cancer of passion you said, "death
is a midnight runner."
The sky had come crashing down like the news of an intimate suicide. We picked up the shards and formed them into shapes of stars that wore like an antique wedding dress. The echoes of the past broke the hearts of the unborn as the ferris wheel silently slowed to a stop. The few insects skittered away in hopes of a better pastime. I kissed you at the apex of the maelstrom and asked if you would accompany me in a quick fall, but you made me realize that my ticket wasn't good for two. I rode alone.
You said, "the cinders are falling like snow." There is poetry in despair, and we sang with unrivaled beauty, bitter elegies of savagery and eloquence. Of blue and grey. Strange, we ran down desperate streets and carved our names in the flesh of the city. The sun has stagnated somewhere beyond the rim of the horizon and the darkness is a mystery of curves and lines. Still, we lay under the emptiness and drifted slowly outward, and somewhere in the wilderness we found salvation scratched into the earth like a message.
This Time Imperfect
I cannot leave here. I cannot stay.
Forever haunted, more than afraid. Asphyxiate on words I would say.
I'm drawn to a blackened sky as I turn blue. There are no flowers.
No, not this time. There will be no angels gracing the lines, just
these stark words I find. I'd show a smile, but I'm too weak.
I'd share with you, could I only speak, just how much this hurts me.
I cannot stay here. I cannot leave. Just like all I loved,
I'm make-believe. Imagined heart, I disappear. Seems no one
will appear here and make me real. There are no flowers. No,
not this time. There will be no angels gracing the lines, just these
stark words I find. I'd show a smile, but I'm too weak. I'd
share with you, could I only speak, just how much this hurts me.
I'd tell you how it haunts me. I'd tell you how it haunts me (cuts
through my day and sinks into my dreams). I'd tell you how it haunts
me (cuts through my day and sinks into my dreams). You don't care
that it haunts me. Oh. There are no flowers. No, not
this time. There will be no angels gracing the lines, just these
stark words I find. I'd show a smile, but I'm too weak. I'd
share with you, could I only speak, just how much this hurts me... just
how much this hurts me... just how much you...