1. Daed Si Em
2. Angels Made Of Stone
3. Vacant Room
4. Joy Of Understanding
5. Second Things Drawn First
6. Motionless Skeptic
7. Visible Marks Make For One Hell Of
A Start
Daed Si Em
medicate my smile without a fucking choice.
with a mind like this how can i rejoice? with lust for the sight
of my own fucking blood. how could i possibly ever overcome?
in the arms of an angel that dropped me, kicked me in my head. opened
my mouth and pissed down my throat. through me into a stone wall
until it broke in half. while it laughed in a cynical matter.
like it had never been happier in it's whole existence. how can i
fix this? i can't, i won't, i'm fucked. just melting away day
after day after day... (here's your chance) to come into my mind.
i'm sure you'll scare from what you might find. (don't go too deep)
if you enjoy your life. don't go too far, you might not survive.
(in a field of lost hope, lost love, lost faith) lost enough for all of
you to take. (in a field of lost hope, lost love, lost faith) lost
enough for all of you to take. in the arms of a devil that knows
my pain. comforts me. wipes tears from my face. understands
my lack of faith. heals my wounds before it's too late. helps
me through my weakest moments. gets me through the night. offers
it's hand. night after night after night... (here's your chance)
to come into my mind. i'm sure you'll scare from what you might find.
(don't go too deep) if you enjoy your life. don't go too far, you
might not survive. (in a field of lost hope, lost love, lost faith)
lost enough for all of you to take. (in a field of lost hope, lost
love, lost faith) lost enough for all of you to take.
Angels Made Of Stone
the doll on the wall always watches me. live
my whole life in sin. i throw her down on the ground. now where
should i begin? the porcelain pieces lying on the floor. place
a piece on my skin. hold it there until i bleed. in hopes to
be pure again. the whispers of past prayers in my mind. the
sounds of past wasted time. i drowned in a flood of pointless tears.
pointlessly shed over the years. in the midst of bright love and
less covered in so much hatefulness, but displayed with such eligance.
remember one key to love is patience. the whispers of past prayers
in my mind. the sounds of past wasted time. i drowned in a
flood of pointless tears. pointlessly shed over the years.
Vacant Room
you knew my destiny let this happen to me.
the highest level of deceit. how could this be? you inflicted
this upon me. with no conscience you took my love from me.
my other half. did i hear you laugh? you don't know my pain
but you will soon. cause vengance is sweet and mine comes in vain.
forgive me not for i know damn well what i do. my soul feels void
because of you. forgive me not for i know damn well what i do.
my soul feels void because of you. fuck up your plans, that's what
i'll do. could have been different between me and you. you
chose this path for the both of us. now it's important that we discuss
nothing cause i don't want to hear your voice. fuck up your plans,
that's my choice. how could you create something you don't understand
and have for them to be what you have planned? they don't deserve
ever to be damned. they can't help the feelings they have.
forgive me not for i know damn well what i do. my soul feels void
because of you. forgive me not for i know damn well what i do.
my soul feels void because of you. gun to the head. rope around
the neck. razor to the wrist. the feelings they have they can't
resist. that's why i am here to help while you sit and think of your
fucking self.
Joy Of Understanding
crucify me upside down on a wooden cross.
tell me that i'm worthless and all i am i lost. tell me that i'm
useless and i'll amount to nothing. if i'm like you then i'll be
something. blinded by lies and useless tradition. blinded eyes
(drowned in submission). blinded by lies and useless tradition.
blinded eyes (drowned in submission). blinded by lies and useless
tradition. blinded eyes (drowned in submission). blinded by
lies and useless tradition. blinded eyes (drowned in submission).
i've never been like you and i know i'll never be. so just take this
time to crucify me. tell me that i'm useless and i'll amount to nothing.
i'll never be like you and to me that's something.
Second Things Drawn First
invisible noise. doubt in my eyes.
a haunted soul was my surprise. a flame over my head, a gift she
said. to renovate my spirit, but that didn't do it. crying
at the steps. don't regret. crying at the steps where we met.
tears filled my hands. for what? for what? guilt for
my head. i'm not, i'm not. crying at the steps. don't
regret. crying at the steps where we met. tears filled my hands.
for what? for what? guilt for my head. i'm not.
i'm not. i've been like this since my first breath. i'll be
like this until my death. blood stains on my bed because of what's
inside my head. the flame fades but the gift remains. crying
at the steps where we met. tears filled my hands. for what?
for what? guilt for my head. i'm not, i'm not. crying
at the steps. don't regret. crying at the steps where we met.
tears filled my hands. for what? for what? guilt for
my head. i'm not. i'm not. take the thorns from your
head. take the nails from your wrist. take the spear from your
side and blow God a kiss. take the thorns from your head. take
the nails from your wrist. take the spear from your side and blow
God a kiss.
Motionless Skeptic
i watched you throw up your insides. i watched
you rot so thin. i watched you pause threw breaths. not knowing
when you'd end. did you leave because life's cruel? or because
God laughs at my pain? i know where ever you are i hope you're in
a safer place. you know i miss you and it's hard to live without
you. and i know if you can see me these days then i know it must
be hard for you too. i wish i would have been there. i know
i should have been there. i wish i would have been there. i
know i should have been there. i wanted to be there for your last
breathe. hold your hand till nothing was left except for your flesh.
that's my one regret. you were there for me when i came in.
i wasn't there for you when you left. you were there for me when
i came in. every day is a struggle. not being able to see your
face. my ears grow cold not being able to hear your voice.
i loathe this place. i had myself under a false appearance just so
they will go away. i hope you know how much i love you and i hope
you know how much i care. i wish i would have been there. i
know i should have been there. i wish i would have been there.
i know i should have been there. i wanted to be there for your last
breath. hold your hand till nothing was left except for your flesh.
that's my one regret. you were there for me when i came in.
i wasn't there for you when you left. you were there for me when
i came in. i watched you throw up your insides. i watched you
rot so thin. i watched you pause threw breaths. not knowing
when you'd end. i wish i would have been there. i know i should
have been there. i wish i would have been there. not being
there is my one regret!
Visible Marks Make For One Hell Of A Start
horns on my head are coming out. the wings
on my back are spreading now. the beauty of black has touched my
soul. the beauty of both makes me whole. i place my eyes in
the sand. now i don't know what is planned. maybe a blade and
maybe flowers. in my death i count the hours. all my dreams
slowly break. my heart melts while i learn. my soul is on a
constant burn. how much more can i take? she always helped
me live. so i scream out for her return. all my dreams slowly
break. my heart melts while i learn. my soul is on a constant
burn. how much more can i take? she always helped me live.
so i scream out for her return. horns on my head are coming out.
the wings on my back are spreading now. the beauty of black has touched
my soul. the beauty of both makes me whole. i place my eyes
in the sand. now i don't know what is planned. maybe a blade
and maybe flowers. in my death i count the hours. all my dreams
slowly break. my heart melts while i learn. my soul is on a
constant burn. how much more can i take? she always helped
me live. so i scream out for her return. all my dreams slowly
break. my heart melts while i learn. my soul is on a constant
burn. how much more can i take? she always helped me live.
so i scream out for her return. so i scream out for her. so
i scream out for her.